My story

I could never really find my place in the world. As a child, I didn’t understand the strife and hatred between people. Popularity I didn’t understand either, because I liked everyone. Still, my life wasn’t bad, and I had a pretty good time. In high school, things became more difficult for me. I didn’t see the point of what they were teaching me, and I developed a huge resistance to school. At the time, these motivation problems were “solved” by labeling me “ADD” at the psychiatric clinic. I was first given Concerta, and then Dexamphetamines. When going out, I drank a lot, and I smoked pot daily.

My resistance to life increased, and I also developed social anxiety. At that time, I felt that everyone thought negatively about me. My energy was so low that I had to crawl up the stairs to my room as an 18-year-old. I had numerous physical complaints, which the doctors could not explain. After a while, I also slept worse and worse. I dreaded every night because I felt so bad that lying still was just not possible. I remember thinking one night:

“If I ever get out of this, I promise to help other people who are still in this mess. I can’t just leave people in here.”

Regular health care has never been able to help me properly. After I didn’t sleep at all several nights in a row, my parents were desperate enough to consult alternative health care. I started seeing an orthomolecular physician. We worked mainly on nutrition, a little exercise, and I was given supplements that helped me a lot at the time. I could sleep again, and I began to rebuild my health.

After a few years of working on myself there, things were going “okay” again. But I still didn’t really have much energy, nor was I really enthusiastic about life. I was still very much learning and researching about the brain and the body. After I learned about epigenetics and began to better understand the interaction between the body, mind and emotions, I started to work more and more on my beliefs. Then I discovered an even deeper layer, the spiritual layer. Something that before then I only labeled as woo-woo and nonsense.

For years I delved deeper and deeper. I was working on this daily. Michael Singer’s books helped me to detach even more from everything that kept me from being enthusiastic and full of energy in life. Self-love was a big part of this. Dr. David Hawkins’ books helped me to intellectually understand the path to feeling better and better all the time.

During this process, I began to help more and more people. I lived what I learned, and I know the lessons so well that I couldn’t help but pass them on to people around me when I felt they wanted to be helped.